Listen to Hope Now by Addison Road as you read this... it's my theme song for the semester!
Well this week has been bittersweet. As the last week of classes ends I feel two ways... happy and thrilled. I lied, it hasn't been bittersweet. It should feel bittersweet, however I am just SO ready for Christmas break it's not even funny. It is kind of sad that I am finishing my third semester of college. It is sad that I will be home for a month missing all of my Auburn friends. BUT I plan on going on several road trips over the break including Huntsville and Florence to see Alex, Mo, Jen, and all my other friends in Huntsville. This semester has been life changing for me. I have grown so much in so many ways... most of all my faith. I have truly begun a "journey" with Christ and I cannot be happier with who I am and where I am in my life. No, I'm not a good student, but I don't have to be. I'm happy with the fact that I'm never going to make a 4.0, that is just not who I am, so what I will do instead of hoping that one day I will be this "perfect" - straight A student - is to be happy with who I am and to strive to do my best each and every day. What I've learned this semester - to be truly happy in life you have to be comfortable with who you are and live your life through and with Christ. This semester I believe I have found who I, Caitlin Lee Brennan, really am. It's so reassuring... and the Lord is so great because He has helped me, blessed me, and loved me unconditionally. So... don't give up :)
Well this week has been bittersweet. As the last week of classes ends I feel two ways... happy and thrilled. I lied, it hasn't been bittersweet. It should feel bittersweet, however I am just SO ready for Christmas break it's not even funny. It is kind of sad that I am finishing my third semester of college. It is sad that I will be home for a month missing all of my Auburn friends. BUT I plan on going on several road trips over the break including Huntsville and Florence to see Alex, Mo, Jen, and all my other friends in Huntsville. This semester has been life changing for me. I have grown so much in so many ways... most of all my faith. I have truly begun a "journey" with Christ and I cannot be happier with who I am and where I am in my life. No, I'm not a good student, but I don't have to be. I'm happy with the fact that I'm never going to make a 4.0, that is just not who I am, so what I will do instead of hoping that one day I will be this "perfect" - straight A student - is to be happy with who I am and to strive to do my best each and every day. What I've learned this semester - to be truly happy in life you have to be comfortable with who you are and live your life through and with Christ. This semester I believe I have found who I, Caitlin Lee Brennan, really am. It's so reassuring... and the Lord is so great because He has helped me, blessed me, and loved me unconditionally. So... don't give up :)
This semester I have made the decisions too:
1. stop drinking - this is something that I have done for personal reasons, and I realized that the only reason I was doing this was to please other people. It made me irresponsible and I had a hard time finding where my limit was. Oh yeah and I'm not even legal to drink yet...
2. become a YoungLife leader - this is obvious... I've only blogged about it a million times. I really feel called to this ministry and could not be happier with this decision.
3. go inactive as a member of Kappa Alpha Theta - I've chosen to do this because Theta is really not where I need to be at this point in my life, it's not where Christ is calling me at this point. I have gotten really burnt out this past semester due to my officer position. Also, with joining YoungLife I feel like this is where I am more needed. Next Fall - I will become an active member once again and will reevaluate how I feel about being a sister of this wonderful sorority.
A couple things I need to address:
1. I am not at all miserable at Auburn, nor do I hate it. I sometimes wish I would have chosen to go to a different school. I feel like I chose Auburn solely based on the fact that this is where "I've supposed to have gone my whole life." I do miss Birmingham a lot, a lot, and wish I stayed there. However, I will not be transferring, every thing happens for a reason, and I need to finish where I started.
2. Seminary... I wanna go! Never thought you'd hear me say that if you knew me six months ago did you? Yeah, the Lord is great and I am beginning to feel called. This is still very foreign to me, and I don't know a lot about it. I don't know what I want to do through seminary... that is something I'm going to have to rely on God for. Prayer is the answer for that, and I know that will be answered. I will finish my degree in Special Education from Auburn before I embark on that task. I am a little intimidated by the thought of seminary... because I don't have a lot of answers. I don't know the Bible and I don't know as much as I should as a Christian. However, that is changing as we speak and it's not possible for me to have all the answers!
Words of wisdom:
I've chosen these verses and they are in this order on purpose because they represent my semester from beginning to end.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not own your understanding: in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." -Proverbs 3:5-6
At the beginning of the semester I struggled with many things, but I trusted in the Lord and he began to help me make my life so much better.
2. Seminary... I wanna go! Never thought you'd hear me say that if you knew me six months ago did you? Yeah, the Lord is great and I am beginning to feel called. This is still very foreign to me, and I don't know a lot about it. I don't know what I want to do through seminary... that is something I'm going to have to rely on God for. Prayer is the answer for that, and I know that will be answered. I will finish my degree in Special Education from Auburn before I embark on that task. I am a little intimidated by the thought of seminary... because I don't have a lot of answers. I don't know the Bible and I don't know as much as I should as a Christian. However, that is changing as we speak and it's not possible for me to have all the answers!
Words of wisdom:
I've chosen these verses and they are in this order on purpose because they represent my semester from beginning to end.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not own your understanding: in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." -Proverbs 3:5-6
At the beginning of the semester I struggled with many things, but I trusted in the Lord and he began to help me make my life so much better.
"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go." -Joshua 1:9
Trusting in the Lord with all my heart is a daily struggle but if I'm strong and courageous I know that the Lord is always with me no matter what.
"Praise be to God, who has not rejected my prayer or withheld his love from me!" -Psalms 66:20
This is kind of ironic, this is the verse from the very first day I began journaling and doing my daily devotions on August 21. Foreshadowing... thanks God you're awesome! If only I knew that this verse would be so true by the end of the semester!
"Not many of you should presume to be teachers, my brothers, because you know that we who teach will be judged more strictly." -James 3:1
Well no matter what I do I am going to be a teacher. Whether I'm teaching through YoungLife, a special education teacher, whether I'm teaching by preaching, or teaching through children/youth ministry... so I feel like this is a very fitting verse for me.
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