Summer 2011. Where do I even begin? Well I was at camp, my favorite place in the world. With my favorite people in the world. Or for the most part anyway. What I wanted this summer to be and all the words I wanted to be able to describe it with: amazing, awesome, spiritual, easy going, fun, I could go on. At times my summer was these things. However, overall my summer was very much so a let down. Was it my fault? Well, partially. I don't like blaming things on others and so I'm going to try my best not to do that. If you know me, if you were at camp with me, you know why this summer was not quite what I expected it to be. What got me through the summer? our amazing God, my amazing parents, and Hunter. One of my favorite quotes is "setting yourself up for disappointment is the greatest disappointment of all." I definitely cause that as part of my let down. I expected this summer to be AMAZING. Every person on staff was great. I wanted to work in pool ever since last summer and that is indeed where I got to work. I got to room with Veronica. I was with my boyfriend all summer. So, all in all I had amazing things going on. However, not so great things went on too. The thing that I learned the most was how important consistency is in a workplace. Whether you are working at a summer camp or a multi-million dollar law firm. Along those same lines, why change something that doesn't need to be changed? Why come up with ideas if you're not going to carry them through? This is why presidents are so hated, because they have great ideas and talk talk talk... but don't follow through.
So what I bring out of this summer, how to be a leader. This summer was not an amazing fun summer. It was a summer of learning. A summer of teaching. A summer of improvising left and right. A summer of learning how to lean on others for support and learning who you can and cannot trust. A summer of putting full faith in God and myself. A summer of receiving great advice.
Someone told me, "You cannot allow one person to ruin your whole summer. You cannot give one person that much power of your life. God will not throw something at you that you cannot handle." Boy was that person right. Even if there are constant road blocks. Some days I would be having a great day and here comes a huge road block yet again. It's like almost getting to the top of the mountain and just as you're reaching the top you trip and slide right back down.
My favorite weeks were fourth and fifth. Everything about them was great. Everything.
As ready as I was to leave camp, I do miss it. What I don't miss is this summer. I will always love camp. I will always want the very best for camp. I did cry yesterday. I don't cry. This summer has been a summer of tears. Was it all worth crying over, definitely not. Some of them were wasted tears. But you have to do what you have to do. For the first time in my life I will say that crying is therapeutic and that it actually made me feel better at times.
For now that is all. I have got to get back into the whole blogging routine.
